Feeling Overwhelmed and Useless

I’ve been the same way for almost two months now. I’ve been out of work for a month and I’m scared of losing my job. I wake up every morning telling myself I’m going to work and I start getting ready and I feel fine. I just can’t get out the door and to work. My depression has been at its worst ever now and before that when I was going to work I would have panic attacks almost twice a week which had my anxiety at its worst. To top it off my OCD kicks in so before I know it, the day is almost over. It’s like all my mental health illnesses triggered at once and I don’t have a answer of why it happens and my medication doesn’t work. My only addiction is soda and I’ve cut back tremendously after being put on toperiamate. I hate confrontation with supervisors because of a previous one that gave me PTSD so I can’t reach out because I feel like everyone thinks of us with mental health problems as if we make this shit up - we literally can’t explain what the fuck is wrong when we don’t even understand it, I hate that others don’t understand that or they don’t have no freaking empathy! This world is so hateful and it’s driven me to have horrible mental health illnesses!