Memorial ideas for my lost baby

It isn't much, but find a rock. One that calls out to you. Then paint it with something to represent the child. After that, put the rock out somewhere where it can be sort of like your own special memorial site just for the baby. Maybe out at your favorite park or near a river. Then light some candles and just meditate there for a bit. Let the emotions sink in. Cry. And come back whenever you need to.