Dealing with Hypersexuality in a Relationship

Hi I find it very difficult, I'm a gay male nearly 50 yrs of age. I've been single all my life, I've had a sexual kink for wanting to see and touch and smell men's underwear since I was very young. I've never had a partner, I can't even talk about it to anyone as I feel nobody wants to listen to me. The feelings I have build up and cause depression. Do you feel the need to masturbate a lot? I fancy dozens of men each day and fantasise about smelling their underwear and bodies, it's all so burdening on my emotions and mind. Just talking about it openly and freely without being told I'm disgusting would help me.

Its one of those things that can be amazing but frustrating because partners aren't always in the same mood. What i did was get me 2 toys (dil + vib) and i do my thing till i'm tired. After a couple days it calms down because i get tender so its like a temporary break from those 24/7 feelings