My Mom's Abuse and Neglect

Tw/ sa self harm suicide abuse my mom. her boyfriend always emotionally abused me and her but she never cared and although he never hit me he hit next to me and around me and threw stuff at me thats how it starts I begged her to leave him but she never would. her insensitivity I told my mom I was sa I told her that it was one of my boyfriend's she got all weird about it and never talked to me about it again then when I tested positive for an std she called me nasty and disgusting. her words she constantly says mean and hurtful things to me like I'm the reason for all her mental issues and that Im a fuck up and she never wanted me. her actions my mom takes my phone changes all my social passwords and pretends to be me to make people mad at me and make me lose my friends she lies to people and tells them I want to fight. her uncareingness she saw the cutts on my arms she saw me scratch and hit myself she saw me pull my hair out she heard me say I want to kms and j want to die but she never cared. my mom is this her way of showing love is this how everyones mom is? my mom I love her but I don't know how much longer I can. my mom