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TraumaHarley

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Lord,. my Fiance is SO hard to love. Wich is fine cus I get trauma and past hurt and stuff, and I take that into consideration, but at some point repetitive behavior at some point becomes a pure choice. and if those choices make it seem like me being in your life effects him in a negative way, why am I still sticking around? to be emotionally spiritually and verbally abused? I feel like my dad's done that to me my whole life which is why I am the way I am, but why does my fiance have to be the same way. HOW did I come from everything in my life to fall completely in love with a man who now almost 2 1/2 years later acts like just my presence makes his whole life wack?

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    • DariaFae

      463d

      Damn. Not too long of a relationship 💕🤗 wishing you the best of luck we tend to fall for the things we grew up around no matter how bad they are, why I'm still single. Take care of yourself and you never deserve anyone talking to you badly in anyway or any other kind of abuse. IT IS NOT RIGHT and NOT OK I will keep you in prayer and wish you well.

    • DariaFae

      462d

      🤗Omg... my phone is being soo weird and slow right now but please feel free to reach out directly to me if you need to text or talk💕

    • DariaFae

      463d

      Damn. Not too long of a relationship 💕🤗 wishing you the best of luck we tend to fall for the things we grew up around no matter how bad they are, why I'm still single. Take care of yourself and you never deserve anyone talking to you badly in anyway or any other kind of abuse. IT IS NOT RIGHT and NOT OK I will keep you in prayer and wish you well.

      • TraumaHarley

        463d

        @DariaFae yes pls pray for me. He was everything I wanted and needed in the beginning and when I felt my mental piece failing I told him I'm not what you want. Pls just leave he didn't. Said I was what he wanted and he'd learn about mental health and help and be there.... 4 months later he was acting weird and I mentally couldn't take it and over reacted telling him to leave and he proceeded to say no but when he got his check on the w eel he was supposed to pay bills he left me like a bitch to go back to his mother's house. Left me in a hole I lost my apt and manically moved with a stranger to el paso and then he contacted me worried and I came back and now here we are, and he now tells me my mental illness is in my head. We argue more than anything and when I ask for quality time he's a dick will sit there quiet looking at ceiling and when I ask him to talk he bitches till I give up and let him watch his stupid anime shows again. He pays bills and I'm a stay at home, so like I know he's tired. But literally over three fourths of our relationship has been spent sitting in bed on different phones barely talking. So I genuinely don't know what to do. Yet I'm inevitably in love with him as a person. I'm not saying I'm perfect my mental health in the beginning I scan see where I mistreated him, but now as much as what he's done to me. Especially telling me he'd never leave and then leaves... And then plans to fuck a coworker.... Idk it's a lot. We were on a break so it's not cheating, but I was assaulted and I experimented with the girl which lasted all about 5 minutes and then I felt uncomfortable so I didn't have consensual sex with anybody on the break whereas he planned to so it's a lot and nobody's perfect my side included but I'm not a stagnant kind of person and I feel very stagnant and very claustrophobic and not trapped but I need to change and I want to change to be with him but he's not willing to better himself like I am at least that's how it comes off because he's been hurt he was with his baby mama for 9 years and she slept with with majority of his friends and cheated on him and lied to him and a lot so I understand that he's scared and like you know but it's like I've already been through all of this s*** with you dog like you waiting for the other shoe to drop and it's like b**** I'm holding the other shoe steadily so I don't know but yes please pray for me I appreciate it thank you so much.

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