Struggling with Back Pain and Suicidal Thoughts

Try out Kratom. Trust me. I wouldn't be able to get out of bed or be productive whatsoever without it as my back pain is so severe. It also helps you mentally and gives you energy, besides it completely wiping out my pain. You can purchase it online or at most headshops, but it's not illegal nor will it pop up on a drug test. However it will not work if you're taking opioids as it chemically fills up the opioid receptors in the brain, but it can also be used to stop withdrawals if you're taking any opioids. Just check it out! I personally buy the powdered form and mix it with Grapefruit or orange juice.. but you can also get it in capsules. Hope this helps you and sorry for the ordeal you're going through. Good luck!

I am so deeply sorry that you don't have the support you obviously need. I don't understand how they can't take the fact that you were suicidal seriously? I have several things that affect my chronic pain and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have the access to the medications I take to manage it or the support that I get from my family. They both are needed and devastating to not have access to.

I'm so sorry that you're going thru this. I hate when people "know " that you're not in pain & don't take you seriously. I've dealt with similar circumstances. It's just recently that my husband is understanding what I'm feeling. It took him taking me to Dr appts to fully understand. I'm going to a pain clinic tomorrow I'm hoping they can help with my back & hip pain. Family Dr wouldn't refill my pain meds. I'm sorry, don't mean to complain to yoy about my life. I understand what you're going thru.