Desperate for Conversation: How to Cope with Loneliness

i dont like being desperate to talk to someone. but its what im being right now and this guy knows it. he has me waiting to talk to him. is it that big of a deal? im catchinf my thoughts and most of my day is spent quiet. so i dont know how carry track of anything i think say or do. should i talk to my mom more. should i try and force it. i feel like weed makes me speed my judgement and rush me into things and at one point i liked that until i went so far it felt like i went backward even theo it was definitely a new experience