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It's kind of like a coin flip. You know the answer you're hoping for the second it lands. The tests will either come up positive and you'll know exactly what you want (keep, adoption, abortion, whatever is right for you. No judgement.) Or they'll come back negative and you'll have more time to process and decide for future potential pregnancies. It's frustrating feeling paranoid about what is happening in your own body while waiting for the tests to come back. I'd recommend not testing for a week and trying to relax, or going to get a blood test. Whether you're carrying a surprise baby, a not-right-now baby, or you're not carrying anything at all, I wish you well and hope everything turns out how you want it. Don't stress about making plans until the stick turns pink. As of right now, you're a regular person living your regular life. I know telling you not to stress doesn't make you less stressed, but please remember to take a few happy, stress-free minutes throughout the day. Notice something beautiful. Smell something good. Remind yourself of the small joys you see in your life.