Anxiousboarderline

160d

I have a very very hard time being alone/feeling alone. For years I was “friends” with a lot of people who I eventually realized were not good friends at all and were damaging my mental health. I dropped almost all of my “friends” at the same time since it was a big friend group full of immature and drama loving people I couldn’t stay friends w some and drop the others. Now I feel so alone. I have like 4 people I talk to now (not including my boyfriend). 1) I talk to everyday but only see her like once a month or every other month 2) I talk to maybe once a week and see her maybe every other month. 3 and 4) I talk to every few weeks and only see them every 3-4months. It’s gotten to the point where I have panic attacks when it’s time to leave my boyfriends house because I know I’m going to be completely alone until I see him again. The only socializing I do is with my boyfriend and his friend group, they are okay but not my favorite type of people and none of them I can see myself being close with. I don’t even know how to make friends since I dropped out of college after a month, and I had a bad reputation in high school so I can’t become friends with anyone I went to school with. I thrive off of socializing because when I’m alone my head goes very dark places. I’m just so lost and alone and I feel like I’m gonna be alone forever. My boyfriend and I have an amazing relationship and are both serious about being together forever BUT if something happens and we break up idk what I’m gonna do because he’s really the only person I have

Anxiety (Including GAD)

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  • Soysaucesins

    160d

    I know this might not help but I was feeling this way and I became a caregiver for the disabled (not an easy job but with three disabled siblings most of it came easy to me) I really like the job bc I’m constantly with someone. And it’s not just because they need me anymore, they are my friends. They need me just as much as I need them they are a big part of my life. And not to mention it feels really good watching them achieve their goals. You don’t have to be 110% to take care of someone. All my coworkers are or have been mentally I’ll in their lifetime and it actually helps us in our careers so if you’re able. Maybe look into a job that helps people. You’ll find people you care about who need you and you’ll be able to connect with people that way if that makes sense

    • Anxiousboarderline

      160d

      I actually start a job Tuesday caring for adults with disabilities!

      • Soysaucesins

        160d

        omg!! Congratulations!! Welcome to the wonderful world 🖤🖤 it will be hard at first but I promise once you learn ur clients it’s SO worth it. There’s some great fb groups for caregiver support if u ever need it

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