Desperate for Attention: Wanting to be Hospitalized

I literally went through the same thought process in April and ended up creating big problems that ended up in my hospitalization. I personally thought the experience was enlightening and I wouldn’t go again if I had the choice. There is, however, a part of me that wants to go back but now I have a good support team and great therapist that I can fall back on instead. My hospitalization resulted in failing 2 of my classes, delaying my graduation a whole year.

I work in a psych hospital and I can tell you that being hospitalized will not help with the attention. Staff will NOT put up with the attention seeking behavior. If you act out, you will be there longer as well. It would be best to go to seek outpatient treatment like counseling and develop healthy coping skills.

I love the honesty, it's nice. Anyway, I also have BPD, but I don't struggle with the attention thing too much. But one thing I'll do is try to be the funny person in the room. Sometimes with some over sharing. SO that can backfire for me, and almost always does WITH the oversharing, unless I'm around other traumatized ppl. Haha. SOOO the internet is the best place to be. My safest option I try to always pick is literally play games on Roblox (any game will do) and say whatever I think is funny in voice chat as I'm playing (voice chat users are 16+). If there's a bad crowd or boring game, ya go to next the server. Plus it's easy to lead a group of people around and do stupid shit. Some players are FUNNY and some are just immature and will laugh at whatever you say. I hate myself but it's damn fun sometimes.