Anyone else feel emotionless at death? I've only had a few deaths in my family and only one I was really close with but I only cried at that funeral a little bit. before and after I felt no emotions toward the death, I felt like I had to force myself to be or act sad so others would feel like they weren't alone in their feelings. a family members cancer is growing and everyone's a wreck. I feel nothing. I at first thought just shock, but last death I encountered, I only cried one time and it was very minimal. I feel insane.
I get it. My grand uncle died and it was open casket and I was just a little freaked out but that was it. My granny died and I wasn’t really sad even though everyone was crying around me. My grand aunt died and I didn’t even get to be at her funeral but I’m fine I guess. And my cat that I’ve had since birth is going to die soon and I cried once about it years ago, I don’t know how I’ll react when she dies.
I understand completely, I think part of my problem was I wasn’t close enough to those of who I went to. The only one I really thought I would cry at was my grandmas. I felt like an asshole because I didn’t. I just sat there blankly I still beat myself up about it cus I loved her so much and I feel like I should have showed it by crying.
I didn't feel anything at the funerals of my family and friends, including my best friend, for me it doesn't feel real, they don't look real, and I feel like nothing changed, like its a joke and I'll see them tomorrow, then it just disappears from my mind overnight.
You are not insane. For some of us it is very hard to understand death. It probably puts you into a shock mode in the brain. It is hard to describe or explain this. As for me. I can’t accept death. It is sort of freaky.
One of my oldest friends died 2 days ago and I haven’t felt anything yet. I have dealt with a really abnormal amount of death but it’s just not something that shakes me anymore. I think there is a limit to how much grief a person can feel at once so it’s just kind of stops at a point. I’m sure it will bubble who later but it’s not a great feeling.
People say depression is just sadness, but I feel more apathy than sadness generally, an overwhelming numbness to all things in the present moment. If you’re not taking medication, I would consider it. It doesn’t fix anything, but it keeps you from feeling quite as numb about the big things that happen in your life.
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