Struggling with Mental and Physical Health

TW:mention of suicidal thoughts . . . How the hell is everyone existing? Bc tbh I’m not and I’m not okay with it. I’m tired of not letting the medical issues define me. Back in middle school I was terribly depressed and even tried to unalive my self several times, but over time I learned to manage it. Then in high school all the physical issues began. I could handle just one but fighting my mind and my body daily is taking its toll. I have reasons to stay and a decent enough support system but it’s not been enough recently. My mind just keeps telling me that if an animal had as many issues as I do, they’d put it down. I’m fighting a losing battle on two fronts and I’m losing the will to fight.