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Kaiiyla

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I agreed to let my therapist finally tell my mom about my diagnosis and history of my ed, I sat in the other room with the door open holding my Esa and couldn’t hear much but small bits…but my therapist really stood up for me and corrected my mom when she made incorrect comments which meant alot to me. It’s still hard to take in and I’m a little scared moving forward now that my mom directly knows, I feel rather ashamed and critical of myself still, but this has been something I’ve felt like needed to happen for so long and it finally did so there’s still some good feelings as well <3

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    • Kaiiyla

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      @SadieShip I truly understand how hard that is, it’s horrible cause my mom would say those same things or would constantly be talking about or mentioning food in these weird ways and for some reason it would be the days I had really high irritability and didn’t want food mentioned at all. I never talked to my mom about my ed or body dysmorphia for years, I’d only throw out comments that she’d ignore. But what helped me to finally be like enough is enough was the fact I couldn’t handle her not knowing how much suffering I was going through mentally anymore, I needed her to know so she’d stop being so insensitive and learn to be more understanding. It may not be a full success, but her having that knowledge now be forced upon her is already a step. I definitely say that whenever you feel the strength to try and talk to her about it even if just a little bit, to go for it. If I didn’t let my therapist tell my mom today I don’t think I ever would have I was constantly back flipping between what I should do about it

    • Eddyy

      682d

      I’m so happy for you! My mom treats my ED as a form of rebellion against her, so I get how hard it can be to be open about those kind of things with your parents. That takes strength, congrats!!

      • Kaiiyla

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        @Eddyy my mom always would throw herself a pity party over it or guilt trip me omfg I’m so sorry to hear you have to deal with that too, but thank you so so much I really appreciate it!😭

        • Eddyy

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          @Kaiiyla same oml, it just ends up making me feel more ashamed and guilty in the end

    • SadieShip

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      My mom knows about my ED but I don’t think she really understands extent of it and how it affects me everyday. I want to talk to her about it because she says things like “I haven’t eaten a thing all day” and those comments really affect me.

      • Kaiiyla

        682d

        @SadieShip I truly understand how hard that is, it’s horrible cause my mom would say those same things or would constantly be talking about or mentioning food in these weird ways and for some reason it would be the days I had really high irritability and didn’t want food mentioned at all. I never talked to my mom about my ed or body dysmorphia for years, I’d only throw out comments that she’d ignore. But what helped me to finally be like enough is enough was the fact I couldn’t handle her not knowing how much suffering I was going through mentally anymore, I needed her to know so she’d stop being so insensitive and learn to be more understanding. It may not be a full success, but her having that knowledge now be forced upon her is already a step. I definitely say that whenever you feel the strength to try and talk to her about it even if just a little bit, to go for it. If I didn’t let my therapist tell my mom today I don’t think I ever would have I was constantly back flipping between what I should do about it

    • Dancingkat36

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      That’s so hard. I’m glad your therapist stood up for you. Do you have a good treatment team?

      • Kaiiyla

        682d

        @Dancingkat36 not currently, of course my therapist is wonderful and I get support here and there elsewhere but I’ve needed far more help that’s been difficult to get due to insurance and waiting lists ;;

        • Dancingkat36

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          @Kaiiyla i totally get that. Well I’m always here if you need help navigating that. I have had my well fair of times in and out of treatment so I kind of know how things work

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