Struggling with Depression and Relationship

iv been working on myself for 2 weeks my depression has put a tole on my relationship we have been talking since I had to leave we finally worked out a time for me to come visit with her kids that I look at as my own iv finally got a doctor that takes my insurance at the end of the week so I can get put back on my medasin that I haven't been on for over 5 years im so nervice that I will fail or make some kind of mistake I love her so much I just don't want to fail her an myself I'm having moments of panic I'm so ready to hold her but I don't know if she is there yet I'm not asking for relationship advice but maby some incuragment