The Drastic Differences Between Manic and Depressive Episodes

tw suicidal thoughts and whatnot when i’m manic like i have been recently it’s hard to imagine being sad. sometimes it amazes me how drastically different a manic episode is from a depressive one. like just 2 months ago i was overthinking everything, any negative emotion would make me want to hurt myself and i was planning on offing myself and thought about it 24/7 no matter where i was or who i was with and everytime i looked at my bf i felt a horrible crushing amount of guilt knowing that i’m actually thinking of leaving him behind like that. and now i’m perfectly fine, motivated, energized (maybe a bit delusional but still happy) and i can’t even imagine dying at all right now bc my life is “perfect” from my current perspective. i’m calm and i haven’t had an anxiety attack in weeks and my mood swings aren’t bad. comparing the 2 literally shows how drastically the chemicals in ur brain can change ur entire mindset.