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AnxietyGirl79

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Just when I thought my husband couldn't go any lower yesterday he gave my laptop that he had bought me for Christmas to his sister, he said she needed one for work but she has money to get her own, I was in the middle of writing my book which is still on my computer along with everything else, I worked so hard writing that book and was halfway through it and now I just feel so betrayed, it's bad enough that I have to beg for money because I'm not allowed to work, yes I want out of this situation and that book was my way out and now I don't know what to do, if I ask for money and he doesn't think I should buy whatever it is I'm asking for the money for I just don't get it, I had started a GoFundMe but his mom saw it and told him and he made me delete it and I just feel stuck, I have no family near me and the family I do have they just don't care, I pray every night for God to take me and not let me wake up, I just can't live like this anymore, I've called women's shelters and none of them will allow me to have my two fur babies and I know if I left them behind he would just dump them at the animal shelter, I cry constantly because I can't stop myself from doing it anymore, he berates me for it, calls me a baby and tells me to grow up, I'm tired of this life

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    • AnxietyGirl79

      428d

      @Sally213 thank you so much, I don't have a car or I would definitely pack up and would gladly live in it if I had to to get back on my feet, the only family that I have really don't want anything to do with me mainly because of my past and they are upper class people who would probably be embarrassed by me, I'm a recovering drug addict but I've been clean for 7 years but I still get judged all the time, I'm gonna try to start another GoFundMe and hope that no one sees it this time, I just need away from these people asap because it's affecting my mental health

    • Sally213

      429d

      I, too, ran into the situation of not being able to have my cat, an emotional support animal even, when I escaped my abuser. I had to board him while I lived in a transitional home until I found a place. I got some money from my abuser by transferring it to a bank account and then closing it. Though that doesn't sound like an option to you. Do you have family out of state that cares? Maybe you can live with them while you get on your feet. Or maybe you can pack your car or suitcase with essentials and stuff you can pawn and drive or take a bus out of state. Idk. Throwing out ideas. Can you pm on this app? Maybe I can help you find a place where I live. My roommate and I have another room. As far as your book, I feel your pain. Would you be able to save it onto a device before your escape?

      • AnxietyGirl79

        428d

        @Sally213 thank you so much, I don't have a car or I would definitely pack up and would gladly live in it if I had to to get back on my feet, the only family that I have really don't want anything to do with me mainly because of my past and they are upper class people who would probably be embarrassed by me, I'm a recovering drug addict but I've been clean for 7 years but I still get judged all the time, I'm gonna try to start another GoFundMe and hope that no one sees it this time, I just need away from these people asap because it's affecting my mental health

    • Chester

      429d

      Can you restart a go fund me under a different name, is his sister aware of the situation, maybe explain that you didn't give permission for him to give it away, you can also write on a tablet or phone, I know it's slightly more difficult, but you can get the same programme on any smart device, my son is a writer, he writes on both his phone and pc, so he can write wherever he is, you never know when something pops in to your head, I'm also writing a book, looking for my way out of a mentally abusive marriage of 27 years, I'm doing it on my phone and tablet, so it's possible, don't give up hope, there is always a way out,

      • AnxietyGirl79

        428d

        @Chester thank you so much, I had no idea that I could do that but I really do appreciate you letting me know. His sister is the same way, she's a narcissist just like him and she's never liked me . But I really do feel a lot better knowing that I can use my phone to write my book ❤️

    • thisgirl2311

      429d

      I'm sorry this is happening can I ask what state you live in? I want to figure out a way to help you. If your married isn't the money both of yours? Your husband is not fair. If he doesn't want to give u money he should not say anything about you getting a job. It's 50/50 in a marriage. Not one person is the boss. Ugh I hope things get better. Please call for help if you are truly feeling suicidal. You matter and you belong here.

      • AnxietyGirl79

        428d

        @thisgirl2311 I live in Tennessee. He wasn't like this in the beginning but I figured out real quick that his family is full of narcissist's and this is how they treat people, I just want out. If I had a vehicle I would just pack up and leave even if I had to live in the vehicle until I could save enough to get a place but without being able to work I can't really afford a car

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