Struggling with Trauma and Relationships

i have been through all kinds of trauma and it's hard sometimes to keep going. my biggest fear is being lied to and used. it hurts to care about someone so much when you mean so little to them in reality. im moving from my hometown soon to the city and it's gonna be a huge step for me financially and academically. im moving in a couple months to go back to school. im thinking about my relationship(s) and how none of them ever treated me like a person. im scared my current bf doesn't like me as much as he says he does. moving and going back to school is going to make it so much more stressful. i can't tell if he really cares about me or is just keeping me around because it's convenient.