Spiraling on a Plane: Dealing with My Complicated Brain

hey. so the plane i was on just landed (in miami). i was journaling on the plane about some really hard and deep stuff and sorta accidentally spiraled pretty hard. now i’m kinda having a breakdown in the airport. i want to talk to someone about it because part of it is important to get out and tell someone i love and trust because it’s really hard to deal with all alone, but i know i’ll get much more upset if i talk about it, and i don’t even know if it’ll be helpful. this is how it always is for me. i feel awful. i hate how complicated my annoying awful brain is. it’s so confusing and bad and complex and stuff. i can’t deal with it. i just want to figure it all out, you know? i wanna at least have the illusion that i know what’s going on inside my own head.