Who Can We Talk To About Bad Thoughts?

I'm here, I have a therapist and I'm good at helping people, It's something I'm passionate about, making the world happier

Nor are you*

you can always talk to me if you so desire . I'm here for anyone and everyone that I cross paths with . I'm not perfect and I have my own "problems" but if we work together with venting and ideas . Then we can grow and learn from it . You may not want to bring them down but if there there for you then communication is key . If there is none of that then it isn't a pure relationship it's like a painted on mask till the mask finally runs of your face then by then it be to late cause it will hurt so bad not even you will be able to lift up that paint brush again. But ! There is hope . You don't need that paint brush or fear of not opening up to your besties you have yourself . Yes yourself that might sound scary cause isn't that the enemy ? It's you who can change the outlook it's you who can be who you want to be in life. You hold the key not them they to also help but you have to first help yourself in some small way to start digging threw that wall for some sunshine . And I'm blessed with insurance I know ... I go to therapy 3 times a week and see a psychiatrist once every other week . I been going since I was 16 . Started having problems since I was 4 . Been in mental hospitals 20 times I think lol ... I had no friends to share my thoughts with . I isolated myself from everyone since first grade . My mental illnesses was so bad I didn't and I mean I really didn't have a childhood at all . I'm not going to mention the bad the worse the mistructure in my life. Cause in all honesty it doesn't define who I am . I am not my mental illnesses not are you . Now you have to be a warrior . 1 realize who is the enemy (what thoughts actions mental idealizations . Etc) 2 talk to yourself about these things or think them don't let your mind drift . Stay focused. 3 find a solution anything even if it's writing it down and setting it on fire (in safe place) or find stuff that's funny or find something/do something productive . What makes you feel good . . If there is no solution . I've been there . Just know time changes things . Your strong. I know you are . We all are . It's just a time of hardness for now . Don't let your past be filled to the brim of awful things (what you define as awful) don't cut emotions off either that just will cause anger to build up . See if a place will work with payments for you to see someone . . ? .