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I JUST NEED HELP idk what this will look like but I need to say things PLEASE someone listen I'm so overwhelmed and panicky first of all I forgot to take my meds last night (not that they've been helping me much lately) and is that supposed to instantly make things worse?? because I slept horribly. nightmares and paralyzed and sweat and so much fear all night. I've been dizzy lately, the kind of dizzy you get when you forget to take pills(NOT your regular light headedness), but ALWAYS. AND today ofc it's a lot worse bc I did forget. idk what to do. I'm 18 but I feel like im nine again it feels like my life is falling apart all over again.. it shouldn't feel like that but it does. I feel paranoid lately, things make me jump when I'm by myself and this.. weird... PERSON keeps TORMENTING ME I'm not supposed to talk about her I'm supposed to do what she says I'm pissing her off by ignoring her rn idk what she'll do to me she only comes when I'm alone when it's convenient she is NOT A hallucination. she's just a person. there. maybe one day I'll be able to see her. but she's not my friend. she could be. but she'll destroy me. she's more like my imagination... but a little less in my control if that makes sense? I suppose she could be but when im sick and tired and.. whatever these episodes are.. shes just not. I've had to physically lock her out before. I haven't 'seen' her in a while. I imagine her form but do not see it. she's so impossible to resist because she's something to blame my behavior on. is that the only reason she exists??? I should mention that my FEAR OR GOING CRAZY is driving me insane. I WANT A BREAK. PLEASE. LOCK ME UP. I've never had a job before. i just got one and lately I'd rather die than move. I can't handle the commitment. why does being NEEDED come with getting payed𤣠i hate it i hate it I feel like they're better off without me. even when I was suicidal I never truly believed that. but it's coming back. SHE is coming back and she CHOKES ME when I'm alone but is this not just my stupid imagination??? I mean. I scored high for schizophrenia on my psych evaluation. BUT I ALSO scored high for... get this.. BOTH. BOTHHH denial of symptoms AND exaggeration of symptoms. every other result on my test was also contradictory like this. IM SO â¨ď¸CONFUSED â¨ď¸AND I DONT WANT TO HURT ANYONE BY DESTROYING MYSELF I'm so sorry for yelling at you all. I don't know what to expect in return. maybe nothing. I'm just scared for some stupid reason. I'm so tired. I'm trying to figure out what the hell is still so wrong with me
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I'm so so sorry you're going through this but you need to seek a professional's help as soon as possible? If you're 18, I'm not sure if you still live your parents or anyone to support you but it's good not to be alone in this state and go get help. If your medicine wasn't working so well for you, that's why you get monthly or so checkups to up your dosage or start something else. Please consult a hospital or doctor immediately, friend.
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I'm glad you let some things off of your chest. I hope you're feeling a bit better now. I don't experience a lot of psychosis, so I don't really know what to say here. So, just know that a lot of people, including me, are here for you. Are you seeing any professionals? I'm sure they can assist you a lot better on this. But no matter what, you're okay. Don't give up. Don't give in to her and what she wants you to do.
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@teelay thanksâ¤ď¸ I have a therapist for PTSD and I've been seeing the same therapist for over a year. Maybe almost two. Idk timeđđ¤ˇââď¸ they've been.. well. Supportive. A little confusing. I think I have a hard time trusting them. They seem to just take any symptom and say, 'yeah PTSD stuff' and I'm left feeling just as lost honestlyđ Also I'm not really sure what's meant by psychosis? I've heard of the term but I'm a little confused lately lol Thanks for your help đ
First of all joining this community and being able to express all of this is not a small thing. It is not easy to share reply personal things with strangers and it is not easy to ask for help. It sounds like you are very aware of yourself and what you are facing which is half the battle. Can you take your meds this morning since you missed them last night? Depending on what the medication is even one missed dose can cause symptoms such as anxiety, nausea, dizziness and so much more depending on the medication it may not be the right choice to take it this morning. If youâre not sure call your doctor and ask. Even on a Sunday the doc or the pharmacy should have someone on call you can talk to. When you say it feels like your life is falling apart again has it fallen apart in the past? Our bodies and cells have unconscious memory. The body can remember pst trauma and we can feel things that feel out of place because itâs not in our conscious mind. For example on an anniversary of a loved one passing away even if we donât register the date in our mind our body feels it again. Or if we are in a situation similar to a past trauma event our bodies go into fight or flight to protect us. The problem arises when the danger passes and we stay stuck in fight or flight and do not come back to a grounded place. When you say you shouldnât talk to or about this girl who is putting that restriction that you shouldnât do these things? You? Your dr? Someone else? We should do what feels right for us what will cause us the least harm or the most good. We should not do things just because others tell us to. You mentioned work. What job did you get? Is it something you dislike doing or are the coworkers not treating you right? I always say the interview is just as much about you interviewing the company as it is the company interviewing you. Not every job is a good fit for every person. Maybe this just isnât the right job for you. Maybe there is another position you would look forward to going to.
@Doglover25006 oh and the thing about the job is its PERFECT for me. I have experience cleaning and I love the people I work with. But idk. It's SO hard to explain.. it's nothing external really. It's gotta just be me. I love it.. but I hate myself and everything I try and do. But I have to stay busy in order to avoid my horrible self
@Doglover25006 thank you so much. I just skipped the meds since I take them in the evening but I'm about to. It's not easy to share at all that's for sure.. somehow it's harder to share with family even though I'm pretty close to them. yes my life has been a weird wreck.. I was raised with a steadily worsening and always disastrous and abusive parent and over the years more and more little traumas stacked up and.. idk. Falling apart is all I've known. The past year I've been separated from that and I thought maybe I was improving but it's just been worse lately. About the girl, she's really hard to talk about because she's kind of there choking me and holding me back. It makes me panic to type it. She just wants to hurt me for being stupid and for fighting against her instead of relying on her. But I think relying on her would destroy me slowly... but it's so hard not to when I feel alone.. why do I continue to abuse myself and then blame it ON AN IMAGINARY PERSON idk. She has her moments though..... when she's not so imagonaryđĽ
@dayzed Also, I'm not sure what country you're in but usually 18 is an age where you can sign yourself up for something if you need hospitalization, in my country it's just faster by visiting a hospital first than a doctor or checking yourself in.
@dayzed you're amazing thank you so much đâ¤ď¸
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