Dealing with Loss and Family Estrangement

Sometimes when heavy emotions overtake us, especially when it is a shock, our bodies can shut down a little. We can feel distant from ourselves, our emotions, people around us, even literally feeling outside your body. This can happen to anyone, it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you. You're just a little shaken, maybe overwhelmed from all the loss. I recommend letting yourself rest, listen to soothing music or maybe nothing at all, turn off the lights and sit or lay down. It can help your brain process memories and emotions and help you feel reconnected to your surroundings

Not showing your emotions could be a multitude of things. If u were abused about your emotions by receiving punishment when expressing them, you’re brain will be trained not to express them. It could be you just weren’t that sad (but it sounds like you were; im not saying you weren’t, but I don’t know you so I am just giving possibilities hehe). You could have trust issues or vulnerability issues maybe. Maybe it was guilt or shame. Perhaps you didn’t feel as though you were allowed to express your emotions because you barely knew him and would feel like you were doing it for attention. I hope any of these have helped 🥺 You might regret that you never got to meet them. The people you know, you had a bunch of beautiful (or terrible) memories with and you’ll love them forever, but with the family you never met, you feel torn that the opportunity is gone?