I'm having an incessant need to s*lf h*rm just to feel pain. I always get so scared of letting myself be happy, so I try and make myself numb again because it's familiar. Does anyone else struggle with this?
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
Yes but I have worked hard on not self harm you should try a coping skill like coloring I do have relapse
I thought I was the only one !! I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. I recommend doing yoga or work out.
I do struggle with this myself at times. It is hard to explain to professionals without having good repor with them. I do recommend that you try and talk to someone you can trust enough to talk to about it. Until then maybe a hobby or skill to put that energy into productive use. Personally when I am having trouble I try and schedule for a new tattoo that way I can feel something and then I dont want to ruin it, but that's not for everyone due to religious,peronal,financial reasons. There are also temp tattoos and "calm strips" you can find online,putting them there as a physical/visual aid to help remeber to not do that behavior can help you understand where those feelings are coming from by stopping and thinking before acting. I hope you find something that works for you.
Somewhat in the same boat
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