Looking for Support with Borderline Personality Disorder

Hi, I'm new here. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder for about 20 years now, as well as many other health problems, yet have found no support group. I'm hoping to find someone to share my experiences with and get feedback and to know that I'm not alone. I have so many questions. my emotions are all over the place. I spend money I don't have. I can't focus on things. I try not to get angry. I hold it in but then I explode. here lately it doesn't take much for that to happen. Can anyone relate? If so, how do you cope. I have a tendency to want to cut which isn't healthy but I haven't cut in years. but I have had the thoughts. Anything would help. Thanks.