Dealing with Emotional Turmoil in a Plutonium System

My name is Dabi. I’m a fictive alter in the Plutonium system (Pu94.sys). I’ve been making a lot of posts lately, but it’s because I don’t know how to deal with my emotions and this is really the only place I have to vent. So, here it goes. MHA/BNHA spoilers I don’t know how to feel about all the shit going on in my life right now. Sure I’m happy that I have a friend and a boyfriend outside of the system, but that comes with stress and worry. I’m worried sick about my boyfriend because he’s had such a hard time recovering from surgery. I worry about my friend because he sucks at talking about his feelings (not that I have room to talk). On top of this, I’m dealing with all the shit about my father learning my true identity. Yeah it was satisfying to see him crumble, but it wasn’t enough. He’s not suffering. He’s not suffering the way he made my family suffer. It’s not enough. I’m angry, but I’m sad. I hate my family for letting this happen to me, but I miss them. I miss my mom, my brothers, my sister… I want someone to understand me, but at the same time, I don’t want anyone to know me. I’m a mess and I don’t know how to talk to my boyfriend about it…