Feeling like a burden to others

Yes! Mostly because she doesn’t understand why I’m not my usual cheerful self. Some days it’s too hard

For sure, and I often feel like people are quick to make a judgement about me. Most of the time just rude, but also just people trying to project their own crappy energy onto others. It makes me feel like such a lame. And I always carry a heavy burden about this. I think I go from feeling like I’m being judged and that somehow I owe an explanation to clarify the diagnosis that I have. I then somehow feel guilty and shameful. I start questioning myself and somehow start to internalize these feelings . I start to think I’m just going crazy. Like I’m somehow faking it or that I am really just fine. Trying to seek sympathy or be the victim. Which is ridiculous, but with anxiety and chronic pain I think somehow there’s a stigma attached. People that haven’t experienced it for themselves tend to be very challenging. I know that it’s part of not being able to comprehend how living with pain ALL the time feels. However, feeling alone and like a burden or an annoyance to others really can take a toll on one’s self esteem. At least for myself. After 6 years of medical hell I can’t say it’s really any better and I don’t really have a lot of Hope for it changing. The only thing I can do is my best and give it all I have . I really work at keeping my light shining despite the way my body feels. It is really sad having to deal with people that are selfish and unable to have any kind of understanding or compassion for others that are dealing with chronic pain and anxiety/depression, or whatever life has brought to their experience. It can be difficult to handle. If there was anything that I could change it would sure be related to hearts and attitudes of people. There is just very little support and no progress with others accepting people as they are. It’s conditional and quite frankly is keeping the ugliness of people going strong. I just see how the accountability , disrespect and actions of people these day is mostly absent, and it is mind blowing to me. I try to put myself in other people shoes and this helps me have a bit of grace and gives me understanding. I know that there are good folks out there and that just when I need it I have an encounter with an angel. This refills that soul tank a little. I keep pressing on and try to be kind to all I encounter. Of course there’s much work to do , but I am not going to let it break me. I will continue to fight to gain some of my health and wellness back. Until then I press on Cruz gently, and hold on to “ there’s nothing left to do but smile, smile, smile. “Sorry for the long dissertation. I just felt your post and had to respond. Hang in there and until then be kind to yourself. ❤️☀️🌈

I think more people feel this way than you realize. I am in my first relationship & I constantly wonder if he is tired of me or finds me annoying. But I think communication with the people around you is best for getting rid of that fear.