Struggling with BPD Episode and No One to Talk To

That's when I masturbate, cut myself, scream and cry to my boyfriend or get high or suck my thumb. I prefer getting high. Those are my go to coping skills. They aren't all healthy, they aren't all toxic. I have other coping skills but these are the big artillery and they've kept me alive for 7 years. Just because something isn't positive doesn't mean it isn't effective. Do what works until you have something better.