Feeling Abandoned and Isolated Despite Support

Have you stopped to think of how your wife and family might have felt when you were on a destructive romp? Or how it felt when you were in the hospital and they still had to see all the people in their regular routines, with you missing? Look, not to be mean, but she didn't pack up the house and run when you were hospitalized. Instead, she called for your needing help. AND, holds everything together while your gone. She is standing by you. Be grateful to her, maybe it'll open some subjects that she's been worried to bring up also? Be happy and be loved.

My family doesn't understand my severe mental illnesses either. I get the "but you're so smart" thrown at me. Like even now I'm experiencing hallucinations and delusional thoughts and my mom tried saying I'm smart so I should be able to stop them. Then when I said I can she said I might spend the rest of my life in a psych ward. She expresses she loves me, but she doesn't know how to handle me anymore. And my step father hasn't even spoken to me in years. Idk what he thinks of all this