The Search for Validation

❤️- hugs to you, sweetheart. You are far more valid than you think. I have full confidence that you will find someone else like her. Friends come and go. More will come into your life when you least expect it.

Nobody had ever pit in the effort that she did to get to know me. I had always had a huge crush on her and just the idea of talking to her unlocked something I never saw in myself before. I actually had a personality. Nobody had ever made me feel comfortable enough to show it but I was actually funny somehow which was always my biggest insecurity.

I was always sad but by the time I got to high school it didn't get better. I was still always very alone I was beginning to think I would never find anyone that would ever take the time and pit in the effort to get to know me. Miraculously tho a girl dm'd me out of nowhere and something changed

By the time I got to middle school I had no friends and was still comparing myself to others even more so actually in order to fill the void of not having friends. I would also constantly day dream and in my isolation I became somewhat delusional and even more desperate for my life to change.

It led to bad anxiety. I always had friends when I was younger but the older I got the less friends I had. I was perpetually comparing myself to others and it was having an effect on my overall confidence level and my attractivness to others.