The Horrible Representation of DID in Media

I honestly hate how people talk about systems. it's so dehumanizing when people act like there's an original and all this other bullshit media pushes. like why is it when systems ask for better representation they're attacked? maybe because we are easy targets. maybe because they want the media they are attached to be right on some level. like it's a disorder caused by trauma. the least people could do is not act like we're fuckin murderers for having been forced to endure hell on earth. like fuck. There's not a single bit of DID representation that isn't a fuckin murderer or at the very least makes a serious attempt even framing the disorder as the issue. like DID is actively villainized. it's fucking awful. I've been verbally attacked in public by strangers literally only because I am deemed by them insane and therefore justified to attack irregardless of whether I have ever meant harm let alone to them. Like my mental health has been used to demean and devalue everything I have ever said even before I was a system. now aside from being unable to move much from bed due to disability I honestly find myself terrified to leave the house. like if it weren't bad enough to be traumatized into a bunch of different people. I was born with tits and ass to grow into and to top off being queer in a multitude of ways and ending up too physically unwell to care for myself alone it just means I make for a nice pretty target. Like I honestly am tired and unsure of what to think anymore but it's just like. The representation is horrible. Like I still love the characters I do get who aren't completely garbage but watching people who aren't systems react and seeing them trying to discuss their psuedo-psychology bullshit with tropes of demonizing systems as though systems are just horrible people from birth and a burden to their families. Constant justifications of abuse and other just horrible bullshit. Like Moon Knight is the best we have and tbh there could still be better. And I deeply love Moon Knight. It's meant a lot to my system and the show has helped us grow. but stereotypes are still an issue with systems and I imagine I'm lucky to be just a bit unintimidating by design to have not ended up dead yet. or otherwise in jail or permanently hospitalized. I imagine systems who are undiagnosed or systems of color who are probably even habitually killed. like if schizophrenia gets cops to shoot I know damn well they would take one look at a system they could claim to be intimidating them and would shoot dead. skin color has probably saved me more than I could ever know and that bothers me even more deeply. because I know for damn certain that if my life is hell adding the brutality of police in a way I could never imagine would probably have gotten me killed by 16. and that's the thing like I was already being treated like a monster and all I did was react. to bullying, assault, molestation, abuse. but like there are probably people who don't even get acknowledged as systems because of prejudice. I know it's fuckin impossible to find a specialist. and there are licensed therapists who refuse to work with systems so it's not like the propaganda isn't effective.