Dealing with Suicidal Ideation After a Loved One's Death

@Babaluke I know exactly what your going through my sister passed in my home imarch of this year .my parents and her husband made me make all decisions about her burial. I found out alot of stuff that is weird in my family like I'm the baby of the family but my parents carried life insurance on my sister and older brother but there's no policy for me. Weird. The day we had her service both of mt parents said they had nothing else to live for. That has triggered my bpd of feeling completely alone in this world finding her gone in my home and ems on the phone instructing me in cpr on a cold body. My ptsd has been triggered I feel alone in this mess am hallucinating and symptomatic but cause I can intellectual understand my issues and speak calmly people think I'm ok. Really I just want to be at peace with my sis I was the one they wanted gone

@Babaluke it sounds like you need to be upfront and honest to get the help you need otherwise you will just keep suffering and not get the help you need. They only keep people permanently if they are incompetent or very very serious cases. I’ve been inpatient like a dozen times and max I was there the longest was a month.