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beanthebunny

652d

tw: trauma dump/ s/h i don't even know where to start. i don't even think anyone will even read this. i desperately don't want to come off as wanting attention or anything like that. ive been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder since basically since i was born, and depression a few years ago. im 99% sure i have ADHD and im also pretty sure i have bpd. something that's been bothering me lately is the fact that i think i was traumatized when i was very young and repressed it because the signs are all there but i just don't have the memories. i just keep having nightmares about something that i think may have been what traumatized me. i have nightmares about it almost every night. whatever is wrong with me affects my relationships too. me and my boyfriend broke up because of things that i was doing wrong and it was hurting them, but we are on good terms and have decided to start our relationship over and we are just going on dates. they say their intentions are to be with me in the future so im happy about that. i also have dependency issues (a reason me and my ex broke up). i have dependency issues on weed and im high like all the time every day and it's not healthy physically or emotionally. ive been trying not to be lately though and only use it when im not feeling ok. it could be going better. i also have problems with s/h. i relapsed last night after being clean for a few weeks. idk ive been like addicted for like 4 years and i just can't stop it it's so aggravating. if anyone read this and has any advice on remembering repressed trauma, how to stop having such a dependence on weed, or anything that would help with staying clean from s/h please let me know. also im sorry for just trauma dumping.

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    • YanyLaurel

      651d

      I'm so sorry, that all sounds so difficult to say the least. My sibling has been through a very similar thing both with the nightmares and repressed memories and also the weed addiction. They have been clean for a long time now but they used to be super addicted. They went to an inpatient and then an outpatient treatment center and it helped. I also suggest getting CBD gummies and stuff like that. You can get them for a pretty good deal on Groupon.

    • YanyLaurel

      651d

      I'm so sorry, that all sounds so difficult to say the least. My sibling has been through a very similar thing both with the nightmares and repressed memories and also the weed addiction. They have been clean for a long time now but they used to be super addicted. They went to an inpatient and then an outpatient treatment center and it helped. I also suggest getting CBD gummies and stuff like that. You can get them for a pretty good deal on Groupon.

    • MaryC

      651d

      Sounds like you could use counseling. Try switching from "weed" to cbd. Ptsd & adhd can easily be treated by a counselor. They might get you with a psychologist who can prescribed the proper medication for you. The nightmares may not be anything that has happened to you. You should really talk to your family about what your dreaming & why you think it might have happened.

      • MaryC

        651d

        @MaryC BTW no judgements, the struggle is real

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