I feel like I don’t have a best friend. I used to, but pe...

I feel it's hard making friends and keeping friends when they don't understand what your going through with chronic illness. My best friend committed suicide almost a year ago and I am struggling with this. And barley any one wants to talk to me and I have felt alone since his passing. I have an appointment for a tattoo on the one year anniversary. But its been a struggle doing it in my own. I am also an introvert so it's hard to meet new people.

I understand myself because it’s happened to me all through my life I even lost the one I was friends with for over 10 years found that year I’m now 18 however I did find a very special friend who has been by my side since I’ve been friends with them I’d rather tell private listen when I was making friends and loosing them I thought it was something to do with me when really it wasn’t fully they just couldn’t handle me because I can be very childish with my extreme anxiety and possibly autism maybe even adhd and my depression but when I met my friend that’s been true I realised it wasn’t my fault and as I got back up on my feet I began discovering my sexuality and I’m lesbian so what I’m saying is you only need to have 1 true friend fuck the lot of the traitors you only need 1 true loyal friend who can except you for who you are