Another UTI, Another Month of Misery

i got another UTI again, right on schedule (once a month, since 2 years ago). every time i get one, its worse than the last. i feel so weak and sick, it makes me feel pathetic unable to do basic things just because of a some bacteria. interstitial cystitis doesnt make it any easier.. any small feeling i need to go to the bathroom, it hurts my bladder so, so bad so i need to rush to the bathroom while feeling like a small push could just knock me out. CBD helps with the bladder. i didnt even know i had this UTI, no pain going to the bathroom, usually i have pain but rarely ive had non painful ones. i am on antibiotics for it now, but again i just feel so pathetic having only about enough energy to do one “major” thing a day before feeling like im going to pass out. by major i mean like taking a shower or walking my dogs for a few minutes in the yard. having to force myself to rest so much gives me anxiety, because i feel like im wasting my time even though any attempt to do work or school never works out. a lame, never ending cycle