Feeling Alone and Depressed - Need Support

Your not alone

I'm struggling with it now. Walks in the woods help to soothe me, and I have a little mind game that helps me stop going in circles in my mind. It won't "snap you out of it" (what can?) but I feel like it helps me start to move back upwards out of the darkness. I've taken meditation classes, but my inattentive ADHD, coupled with a throat problem that makes me snore when I get too relaxed, makes it hard to do. Walking meditation is okay I guess, in the woods, if the path is smooth enough to not pay attention too. Most of this is just to try to spend time outside of my own head, which is the worst place to hang out when I am depressed. Hang on, you can make it through this.

My family is tired of it. My biggest support is one of my brothers and he thinks I can snap myself out of it. With everything else he's amazing. I can't snap out of it. I've had mdd since I was a child.

My family's been like that too. Not alone. Yep, you, your words, your actions matter. Glad you reached out for support here.