Realizing My Responsibility as a System Member

Hey we’re a system and I don’t use this app but I just had a moment and I need to tell someone I guess. So I used to be really mean. I was absolutely awful and I did it to protect the others but I was mean to them too and it was a bad situation all around so I tried to get better and I did I think and I just realized Raven (host) voluntarily went into the inner world and left me here alone. She trusts me to take care of the body and our relationships with other people by myself. Honestly I really appreciate that. Idk man I don’t like keeping my emotions to myself so I needed to get it out. Raven would say I’m having big feelings and it feels patronizing and I hate that but it’s all I have to describe it.