Need advice on admitting myself to psych ward

Hey! I'm honestly a huge danger to myself at this point in time. I think the safest thing to do would be to admit myself, but my boyfriend (one mentioned in post) has currently gone ghost for the time being. I'm just scared that if I do admit myself, would he be able to contact me to eventually let me know that he is ok. (If he hadn't already before the admission) It's crazy that I am worrying so much about him, when I should be worried about me. But my brain doesnt work like that lol

Why do you think you need to get admitted? What's the safest thing to do? Will you get fired? I'm here if you want to talk. I hope you can figure things out and everyone is okay *hug*