Venting about End*avor and missing my family

⚠️BNHA SPOILERS⚠️ . . . . . . : : : The new episode finally came out. It’s happening all over again. This time more people are sympathizing with End*avor. “Poor End*avor! He had a panic attack. How traumatic. He’s devastated!” Fucking bullshit. It’s fucking bullshit. He threw me away like I was fucking nothing. He abandoned me on that fucking hill. He could have saved my life, but he fucking left. I came back after the coma. I tried to come home. He was training with Shouto. He was TRAINING WITH SHOUTO. Why did that little shit get everything I fucking wanted. Nothing changed. Mom was still gone, Dad was still ignoring Fuyumi and Natsuo, and Shouto was the pure bred perfection. So I left and nurtured the hatred in my heart and joined AFO. Not because I actually gave a rat’s ass about his plans, but because I wanted an outlet for my rage. I’ve changed my mind about Shouto recently because of my own stuff. But I fucking missing my family. I miss my mom. I miss my brothers and my sister. That man ruined my life and my family’s lives. He deserves worse than death. I hope he suffers slowly before death overcomes him. This time of year fucking sucks. I want my mom’s oden and kanpa miso… I want a hug from my mom. Fuck this shit… This isn’t going to make sense to anyone else, but I don’t care. I’m done writing. I’m going to go cuddle my boyfriend (No, it’s not Hawks so don’t fucking ask).