Curtzy

74d

Hi! I'm new here and have a lot of mental health and a few physical health things I would like to find community about. right now I'm going to focus on the Autism™

My brother was diagnosed at a young age due to it taking him a while to talk. I've heard that siblings tend to have autism together so that's my first clue.

Second is that I've always had separation anxiety and have always needed some form of comfort item on me, though mine were more socially acceptable (compared to my brother who carried around a stinky pillow until he left at at a hotel at the age of 8). Mine had always been a notebook of some sort as soon as I started writing and drawing.

Third is my sensory issues. This is usually chalked up to therapists as anxiety. As a child grocery stores used to freak me out and make me either want to cry, or made me need to move (stim a lot). I have vivid memories of getting in trouble for this as a child. As I grew it didn't change, And the same thing would happen in doctors offices, airports, most "professional" public spaces. I still can only stand to be in grocery stores for limited amounts of time and where blue light glasses or shades when I do so.

Forth is social shit. which tbh I could make several other posts about. the most potent example would be my queerness being discovered mostly due to the fact that most relationship stuff never made sense to me. I got bullied because I didn't understand why people couldn't love multiple ppl at once, scolded when toddler me would get frustrated when there couldn't be two mommy's when playing house. As a child ppl would end up not liking me for reasons and didn't understand and adults would side with them. As a grew it became clear to me that my lack of social skills are because I'm "blunt" or "bitchy". Not sure what to think about this still...


but yeah! may be autistic. my childhood best friend just thought I knew I was....thoughts?

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

Anxiety (Including GAD)

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  • spoonie1234

    74d

    Omg, hey! I relate to the "being disliked for being blunt or bitchy" thing, lol. Over the years, I've figured out that having more neurodivergent (even if not always diagnosed) friends than neurotypical friends has helped a ton, because they "get it" so to speak.

    • MidnightSM93

      74d

      this comment could’ve been extrapolated into an epic poem in my hopes

      • MidnightSM93

        74d

        👍

      • spoonie1234

        73d

        What does this mean? I'm confused.

  • MidnightSM93

    74d

    Everything here is kind of tangible to me. I’m not scared of formal environments but i can’t be organized in grocery stores. In dsm 4 mine was diagnosed as pervasive development disorder not specified but now 5 dumbed everything down to 1-2-3 syndromes. I’m a little over-talkative and hoard a bit, but then again people just sense my openness (just say poly yo)(still curious) and refuse to pitch in on picking up house or getting other tasks done. Now this sellout roommate won’t contribute at all, and i’m already aware my demeanor scapegoats my own self to be labeled nonstop. Never take the blame for how someone else mistreated you. Fair advice for future reference I recommend looking up neuroscience of eating disorders on youtube and also abandonment therapy, among everything else you may need. I’m proud you posted this. Even though most know it’s highly unlikely, it IS a nice dream to actually find the rare people who agree old pagan rites included “protect your own” methods, but as a species majorly most won’t even begin to discuss it. Even then, lots secret to themselves ponder it but are never awoken to the possibility formally. And it’s already extremely difficult to get points across without argument. We’re not “same”, but I see you my kin. Take care of yourself, explore, and keep it easy. Keep this as a safe backup place, too. Seems like a better idea to me too. Never thought anyone would be this similar yet unknown, and i hope this was helpful. Just try to self validate. Usually that’s step one. Big hugs. Cousin midnight~~~~>

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