Raha

78d

Vent incoming:

Watching my friends around me leave me behind and stop talking to me just because they start dating someone is such a repetitive cycle in my life and I'm tired of seeing it. I'm so tired of having failed relationships and never being able to move on from my exes while everyone around me is in happy relationships and won't stop shoving in to my face. I could go on days and not contact my friends ever and they just wouldn't care.
My family thinks I'm dumb for feeling this way and I don't blame them. I was never really a jealous person. I feel selfish. I'm nothing but a burden to everyone around me and it's so obvious that everyone is fine with me being gone. I'm just an extra person, nothing special. I don't even know why I try these days. I wish I never existed in the first place.

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  • VampireBunny

    78d

    You’re not dumb. It is sad & disappointing when people leave you behind. People drift apart, & that’s normal, but it doesn’t mean it’s not sad. & all of the times my friendships have faded away, it was never because I was in a relationship. I can go for months without talking to my friends, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love them. They know I love them. One day, you will find the right people- the ones who can appreciate you & love you from a distance, when you’re not talking. They’ll keep you in the backs of their minds & the bottom of their hearts even while they’re busy with life or dealing with their own problems. Maybe you’re not for them & they’re not for you, but that’s fine, because eventually you’ll meet someone the right ones.

  • depressedunicorn

    78d

    My mom keeps bringing up about guys but I just feel like I'm destined to be alone. No one's ever interested in me. And my friends from highschool keep drifting further and further away. Then some of my friends who are older are getting married and having kids which makes me feel more distant from them.

  • Another_Joe

    78d

    So right now I have put almost all my energy into my relationship and I feel I have lost all my friends because of it. The great thing about friendships though is most of the time you can rekindle these relationships and it will feel like no time has passed. I have failed though at keeping my social life going. Through out my life I have had many close friends and very active social lives many times over in several different communities and then I have also had many different periods where I felt super socially awkward and felt very alone and very isolated. It’s crazy going from very popular to socially awkward, shy, low confidence then back and forth between the two. I know if I ever decide to start up a Social life I can do it with whom ever I want. And I know that I will be very strange, awkward, and uncomfortable for awhile until I get my confidence back. That feeling you have about being an extra person with no meaning sounds a lot like depression talking for you. It’s hard to find joy in life during a depressive episode. I have battled depression my whole life. Sometimes I feel like nothing matters and there is no joy in life and there is no reason to do anything. This is a tough spot to be in. It is also temporary. I have gone years like that but because I never tried to change up my life. I have been on and off depression meds my whole life as well. Medications help and sometimes they need to be switched because they might stop working. Always important to seek care. Diet, exercise, the people you spend time with will have a massive impact on your mental health as well. Most of the time when I am unmedicated I could care less about other people and do not enjoy spending time with others. During depressive episodes I feel there is nothing I can do to change how I feel. I remember the moment when I started taking a medication and it finally started working and then miraculously I enjoyed spending time with others and enjoyed interacting with strangers even. Complete night and day transformation. Right now I am off anti-depressants because of my anxiety and long covid situation. I miss caring and enjoying life as much as I used too. But I still have the ability to enjoy others and can sometimes find joy in the things I do. So for now I am getting by. It’s important to have a social life. And just keep in mind you can pick who you want to be your friends for the most part. You just have to talk to them and ask them how their day is going. Find common interests then explore those interests with them. Pretty simple formula. Most people are pretty easy. People can be very complex and interesting to me. The world is truly yours. When I was in high school I learned I could sit at any table I wanted. So I just started sitting with the popular kids. No one ever said anything to me. So they became people I talked to and became my friends. You have to act like you belong and because people don’t know if you do or not they just accept you. I used to go to a lot of film festivals. I would make sure I would get a VIP pass or a Filmmaker pass and then just crash peoples groups and events. I was very awkward till I just no longer felt awkward. I would talk about my friends if I didn’t want to talk about myself. But people always want to talk about themselves. The more people tell you about themselves the more they like you. People are very self involved to worry about what you have going on. I guess the important part is enjoying just being you and enjoying what you have going on and others will follow, your confidence will shine, and then you could care less if people want to spend time with you or not because there is always more people to spend time with.

    • Raha

      78d

      thank you. you explained my situation at some points. ive been in a rough spot for a while and watching everyone else's lives getting better has been having a weird effect on me. i've tried to engage myself in things but it's all just temporary i guess. i don't know. everything kind of feels pointless to me right now. I haven't been able to feel anything for the past few days

      • Another_Joe

        77d

        Just know that it’s okay to feel like that and it’s temporary. And seek care if nothing changes after a while.

  • MichealB

    77d

    I get a lot of the same feeling. And I end up getting into relationships just because I'm lonely. Which is kind of worse honestly. I'm just trying to take the time for myself and figure out what I want. Not trying to force anything and just feel my feeling about my exs and the failed relationships. Your feelings are never stupid

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