Struggling with BPD Relationships: Need Advice

I have relationship anxiety for loved ones, especially romantic. I don't want to fall into my impulsivity.

It’s totes okay 2 b insecure about maintaining relationships with bpd, but be mindful that other people are having trouble keeling things together as well, not just people with bpd are bad at love. Relationship care, and mindfulness practices are essential for maintaining relationship hygiene. I highly recommend youtube videos and a notepad logging your daily reflections on improving,

I find it quite challenging, I tend to push everyone I love away and then crawl back to them. I have found it hard and lost multiple people from my actions but it got better eventually from my experience personally. You have to put a lot of effort and really choose someone who will actually understand you. It will work out with the right people it just takes a while.