Share Your Trauma: What's the Most Difficult Experience You've Had?

How my mom would allow her bfs to use me as a sex doll since I was like 3 or younger I believe. Can't remember much bc of dissociation but ik it happened. I've slowly gotten the memories back but I'm to it mostly. N how serveral of my ex's tried to do the same thing.

HARD TW . . . . . . . . . . . . . Watched my first gf (I've had bfs before her) self terminate. She used her father's .9 revolver about 4 feet from me. I can still see, smell, hear, and feel everything. Every gorey detail, every emotion that ran through my head. Why couldn't I have saved her, why didn't I pick up the gun and follow her? Why? So many questions I will never have answered. Just the guilt and trauma and shame. Her parents blamed me, and when I thought I was going to get grief counseling I was instead put into conversion therapy. Shamed for having loved someone who was the same gender. Blamed for her death. 6 years ago now. We were kids. Now she's gone, and I'm still hollow, with the sound of the gunshot still bouncing around in my head.

4 year abusive relationship resulting in slight brain damage, a fractured skull, fractured eye socket, broken nose multiple times, sexual abuse, general physical abuse, mental and emotional abuse. I'm finally free from that but I still struggle every day with the ptsd from it.

Probably chronic illness since I was a kid that my parents and doctors gaslit me into ignoring (they tried to get treatment for me but they just gave up after a while) or just the high security psychiatric wards I’ve been to

Years of abuse from my SO at the time while both my parents pinned against me. I was also suffering from severe malnuishment at the time

I know I have a couple but... I think they play the following theme of people are not who they seem/say that they are. I'm just affected emotionally, physically, and mentally. I get very scared to be in any relationship and say anything just to get backlashed and abused again. Or being touched in places I am not comfortable with.

Being human trafficked for years by my own mother

My dad once hit me in front of all of my friends and when I tried to talk about it and get some emotional help my mom would get pissed and said it was a one time mistake and I should get over it

Being chased by a guy with a hatchet 🪓 I honestly don't have one most traumatic experience because I've been through many horrible things in my life

I have quite a bit of dissociative amnesia in regards to my childhood so the *most* traumatic thing I've gone through, I probably don't remember. The first story from my childhood that comes to mind is when I was at a funeral with my half brothers and my mom (parents are divorced) and one of my brothers say to me "You're the only one here whose dad is still alive." My dad isn't a good person, but I went home crying asking to stay the night at my dads instead.