Feeling Disconnected from My Fiance

I haven't been able to keep a relationship because of my constant mood swings about romance. Some days I'm all over them and I'm loving and touchy, then I'll go months where it's mostly just me feeling repulsed and smothered by them. It's so aggravating because the resentment that follows isn't even something I'm trying to have. I wasn't held or loved physically as a kid much, I feel like my body rejects it because I'm not used to it. It hurts a lot because i haven't had a partner that's understood. I'm so sorry you're struggling with this, sending love 💕

I go through the same thing with my fiance. It best to be honest with him. You need to keep communication open between you otherwise the relationship will suffer. I know it scary because you don't want to lose him but you'll lose him anyway if you lose communication. If he's studied psychology and loves you then he'll understand and you can proceed together to deal with it.