Struggling to Find a Healthy Balance with Binge Eating

I feel this. Any time I try to eat better, exercise more, or moderate my intake (whether I need to be eating more or less; EDNOS is a fun mess), it triggers my ED. And things going on that stress me out that I have no control over. I’ve been struggling with EDs for 22 years. I have times where I can do it and don’t slip back into bad habits, but most of the time, it’s at least hovering very closely, if not fully triggered. I know EDs are like nicotine or alcohol addictions in that it’s a continuous recovery rather than getting to a point where you can really say you’re “recovered.” Which sucks hardcore. I understand why they are like that, but I still hate it. I try not to dwell on that so much because it just makes me feel worse, but… sometimes it’s hard to shake the anger and resentment, especially when it’s so difficult to find and maintain a middle ground. 😔