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MerlinTheWizard

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I had a manic episode while high on weed at a...uhh..friends house. or I hope we're still friends. okay. so I went from haveing fun and drinking and kissing on him. too crying and trauma dumping and wanting to cut up my stomach because I am "too fat" back to haveing the best time ever and professing my need to cuddle. Even when in the middle of my high I had thoughts that something was wrong with me that would amplify through out the night. In the morning I thanked him for haveing me over and apologized again for the 1000 time for haveing a manic episode. I asked him about it and even he said "You're fun too hang out with. but you're intense..." Did I fuck up my potential friendship? I feel insane and insecure, and like I keep fucking up....

    • MerlinTheWizard

      403d

      TRIGGER WORNING UPDATE Okay now that I'm more stable...now that I'm looking back at it...I might have been molested...I remember him trying to calm me down by holding me, then he licked my ear and spooed me...then I woke up in my underwear....I was drunk and high at the time. In the moment I felt very cuddlely and affectionate at the time...I uhhh...don’t know how to process this...uhh...

      • Igglepiggle

        403d

        @MerlinTheWizard never talk to him again maybe go to the police that’s horrible and tell everyone you’re comfortable telling maybe therapy if you can that’s horrible and if he did anything he’s dangerous you weren’t sober to consent

        • MerlinTheWizard

          403d

          @Igglepiggle I feel really weird about comeing out....I feel stupid it's not even the first time I've been molested...

    • Igglepiggle

      406d

      You should probably steer clear of weed if that’s how it effects you and try talking to him when you’ve come down just calmly, sometimes you need to trauma dump but people often can’t deal with that and that’s when therapy can help :)

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