Frustration with Medical Procedures

100% agree it is grief of possibly feeling better! LOVE that wording so perfectly explain the emotion. Thank you bubbies! And yes, went through this for a year and a half and FINALLY found my answers last week. It feels surreal. It made me realize that every test, every time a doctor looked at me and said “nothing is wrong, the labs are totally normal and you look great and you’re young and healthy, you should see a counselor” each time a took that blow to my hope, to my sanity brought me one step closer to the truth. None of it was in vain because without it I wouldn’t be where I am today: on the road to treatment and recovery!!!🤯😆😆 so know we’re grieving with you, but please don’t give up hope.

For me, those times that I’ve finally figured out whats going on, it finally gives me a sense of control in what my body is doing to me because once I know, I can find the meds, the treatments, do the research, anything and everything. I can find ways to combat it and try to get better. When I have no idea it’s so much more overwhelming and frustrating because there’s nothing I can effectively do to fix it or feel better. There is always a sense of relief when I finally get a real diagnosis. And honestly I think it’s grief I feel when they say “we didn’t find anything” because I’m grieving the loss of that possibility of feeling better. I go through all the stages until I get back to acceptance and start all over again. Also, I’ve had major issues with nausea too for years and ginger capsules were a game changer for me. And the fact that it’s a natural remedy is a nice plus. Hope you feel better!

I went through this for a year, it’s rough. Every test was negative and all the time I spent running around for different imaging and tests felt like such a waste.