Struggling with Mental Health and Processing Issues

hi, Ive been struggling most of my life in varying ways, with speech, processing, socialness. and much of it is hard to describe for me. Ive been diagnosed with ADD since i was in 2nd or 3rd grade. I have Depession and some social anxiety. I have processing issues that make it difficult to function/remember things and also "glip" out a lot like dissociate but in ways I dont even realize and have a very hard time controlling and end up forgetting what happened. Regarding my depression its sporadic. Some days ill feel great or decent and then the next ill feel likeni have to force myself to do anything. I also struggle with the energy to do anything it feels like it takes me longer and a lot more energy to do things than most others. Currently im taking Modafinil, and it kinda helps.. i dont do well with SSRIs... used to take adderall when i was younger and it was horrible, rlly anti social and gloomy for years. These issues have affected everything from my work, to relationships, to friendships, self care, and thoughts/learning, school, etc. Im trying but its been really difficult. Any suggestions? med reccommendations? can anyone relate? sorry for the drawn out ness, kinda also apart of my issues loll.