snowwww

292d

i’m at the point where i’m not gonna kill myself, but i wouldn’t be upset if i died either. like it feels like i have no purpose in the future but again i’m not gonna do anything about it. can anyone relate???

Depression

Generalized pain

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  • Hannah12

    292d

    Hey you are so loved and important. If you need to, reach out to me or to someone else. ♥️♥️

  • IslaRae

    292d

    I know that feeling. You matter. No matter what anyone says or thinks know that you are a beautiful human ❤️ and you matter. ♥️

  • IslaRae

    292d

    😥 depression is a big liar. It makes you feel like a worthless meaningless person. That's not true at all. You matter. You are beautiful, you are amazing. You have meaning, you are powerful. You can.

  • SkylerRose

    292d

    That is called second hand suicidal; you don't care if you died, but you don't do it yourself but wish on God that something would happen. And since you don't want to do it yourself anymore honestly your taking steps im the right direction. I am proud of you for getting to that point ❤️

  • dannyimprego

    292d

    yes babe i get u. like i will put myself in dangerous situations sometimes just to try to shorten the process, but i won’t go out of my way to harm myself, yk? it’s like i don’t even care enough about my life to end it

  • Snowy

    292d

    I understand too. It's an uncomfortable place to be in. I find a little, idk, relief in recognizing that I'm not ACTIVELY suicidal. Not wanting to die but not caring about staying alive is a step away from wanting to die and a step toward wanting to live. That doesn't mean you can't or won't relapse and take a step back, but if you do, recognize that this step exists. You don't go from "I want to die, there's nothing to live for" to "my life is amazing and I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings." There are a lot of intermediate steps in between, including "I don't want to die, but I don't really want to be alive either." It may sound a little fluffy, but it really is a journey. Journeys rarely are a straight and easy path from start to finish. I'm on that journey too, you are not alone ❤

  • MaxIsWack2

    292d

    Yeah, I feel that way too. I am under so much stress and in pain all the time so I wouldn't mind if that would end. I would never hurt myself because my family lost someone to suicide and I have seen the heartbreak even 10 years later and I wouldn't want to have my family and my friends to feel that pain again. I hope this feeling goes away and we can live more happy lives and be excited for the next days to come, but until then just take care of yourself the best you can. You got this ❤️

  • EvilMadood09

    291d

    You matter I’ve been through the same thing you won’t just be hurting yourself but the people who love and care about you I am always here if you need a person

  • Ellitaki

    291d

    I get that. Like for me I feel like if something happens then hey it happens oh well but I don’t wanna die. You just need to find something that brings you joy, a purpose worth living for. I still have these thoughts but as long as you’re trying your best to make your life better the thoughts will lessen. It’s really hard to have that mindset, I get that. But at the same time as I said just live with purpose, grasp onto things that’ll make you say hey you know I really like living, like things in life that brings you happiness like family, friends, songs, even if it’s something small like finding a small flower you like just say hey you know if I die I won’t be able to see this again. Or when your happy hold onto it, think about how you can be happy next, think about things in life that you won’t get to experience and just keep in mind if you’re dead then you can’t do those things that’ll make you happy. It’s hard, I know and struggle with this but even the smallest things that’ll make you happy about living then do those things.

  • Sydari

    291d

    Yes. I recently came to THAT point. Where I decided I wasn't going to kill myself and the only thing left to do was go on. Sort of a hellish purgatory... But after a month or so I feel unmotivated and aimless AND I don't want to be dead anymore.

  • Bmanlittle

    291d

    I've been there way too many times, sometimes it feels so bleak and hopeless, but it's just your mind focusing on the bad thing that makes life hard, to this day I still struggle with it, but everyone has a purpose, you may not realize that because of the "gray glasses" (as my therapist calls it) you see through like me, it makes everything harder, but nothing can stop you, you are too amazing to lose keep strong and prove the world wrong!

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