Struggling with Socializing: Need Advice

Yup. I guess not everyone is alike. And it takes both parties to continue and find something they relate to

Yesss like I can be so dry sometimes if the other person isn't putting in the same or more effort. Like I don't know how to spice it up.

I've always thought it was caused by anxiety, though who knows but, the same thing happens to me. It's like my brain goes blank or my thoughts freeze and I can't come up with even the tiniest thing to talk about!

I have started to say I have NPC energy. Most of the time I don't engage people unless they initiate first. I am really super bad at coming up with things to talk about and to say (this could be from autism, anxiety, or trauma). I can be talkative under the right circumstances tho.

This is a big problem I have. Unless the other person/people are the talkative type then conversation dies out very quickly. I think for me it is a combination of Autism and anxiety. I am shockingly bad at "small talk" - I just find it pointless a lot of the time!