My whole life i was a straight A student and was class president in high school and a varsity athlete and accomplished in so many other areas. Now as a junior in collegeI can barely get myself to go to class, turn in an assignment, or bother to study long enough to get higher than a C on an exam. I haven’t been to the gym in a year. I don’t remember the last time I actually cooked a meal. I barely clean. I can hardly take care of myself. I’m taking my meds and everything and check in with my psychiatrist regularly and we’ve been trying to fix things for years now but I feel like I get better for a few weeks and then I’m depressed again. I feel like a burn out loser and I don’t know what happened to me. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I spend all day WANTING to do my homework and study or clean or just do SOMETHING but I CANT


Attention-Deficit Disorder

Anxiety (Including GAD)

Bipolar 2 disorder

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  • ATrainwreck


    I'm sorry you're going through this. Obviously I don't know exactly how you feel because we aren't the same person but I've felt something verrrry similar. I'm not going to sit here and pretend I have all the answers but I will say this. I learned I am able to get things done if I put them into small chunks. Don't think about the big picture. I also find that I am more productive when around others. If you don't feel comfortable going to a library or something (I don't when feeling depressed) there are plenty of youtube videos or streamers who just study in their videos. It's designed for those with depression, anxiety, and/or adhd. As for the meds I can't give much advice as I am also finding my medication isn't working well enough. The last thing I want to say is that you've got my ear whether you want to talk or vent with no response.

    • aries02


      thank you. It’s a really isolating feeling so it feels good to know there’s someone out there that’s been through something similar

  • jghoulia


    This is extremely relatable, not only for when I was in college, but even still 6 years later. Right now, I am in a VERY similar episode. I know that's probably the last thing you want to hear--that this continues--but I promise you I've gone through longer "good phases" the more I've worked at it in therapy and with medication over those years. I wish I had a magic answer for both of us bud.

  • CuddleCat


    I was your age when my first major depression hit. I can totally relate to everything you said. I thrived in high school. Absolutely thrived. Then, suddenly, third year of college came and I suddenly didn’t know how to put an outfit together. It’s so frustrating. Do you have any support?

    • aries02


      i have a couple people I can vent to and I’ve been trying to see a therapist but haven’t had any luck. Even so I can never explain exactly how I’m feeling because they haven’t been through it but they’re as supportive as they can be

      • CuddleCat


        I get it. I hope you can find a good therapist. And even though other people can’t feel it like we do, their compassion and willingness to understand is helpful. Not many people are like that, though

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