Struggling with Dissociation and Self-Harm

Hey I downloaded this app to ask abt some grounding techniques that work for some of you. I’m not really sure what causes me to dissociate, but I’ve completely quit smoking marijuana because it makes it ten times worse. I’ll have days where I’m confident and feel like myself but that can change overnight and I’m a totally different person, living in a haze. When I dissociate I usually overthink and have a different mindset which drives me even more down the rabbit hole of totally loosing my identity. I’ve resorted to self harm, using a kitchen knife to cut my legs, but it only grounds me and makes me feel like myself for the next couple hours. I’ve never really received any treatment for it because whoever I tell tells me I’m crazy or mistakes it for a lack of confidence as I’m usually a pretty confident guy until I dissociate out of nowhere, this is completely ruining my relationship with my family and girlfriend. Whoever takes the time out of their day to read this and help me out I really do appreciate it. It would help a lot to know that someone out there can relate to what I go through.